one thing remains

this weekend i was house sitting at this beautiful home.  while beautiful, it still was a breeding zone of my insecurities, my jealousies, and my fears.

my jealousies because it is a home that seems so far from what i will ever have, yet would love to have.  the walk-in closet, ladies, is to die for.  opening the door to that closet is an experience!  walking through another door though leads you to an oasis including a hot tub surrounded by a privacy wall and plants galore.  it's wonderful. house sitting is a wonderful thing, really.  you get to enjoy the luxuries that you don't own, but others do.

my insecurities and my fears because the house is in the middle of nowhere.  the house is surrounded by windows and more windows.  no curtains.  no blinds.  for those who know me well, know that this combination does not sit well with my fears of being alone, especially being alone in the dark in the middle of nowhere. only to add to this discomfort, i had no reception on my cell.  so basically, i was left to be protected by the dog (the same dog that hides under the bed during a thunderstorm) and the alarm system (because when you're in the middle of nowhere someone is going to be there really quick if the alarm goes off, right?!?!).

in a place where my fears would normally take over, i was continually reminded of god's love and protection.  even in the tiniest moments when i allowed the fear to begin to arise, i immediately turned to god and asked him to redirect my thoughts and replace those fears with his peace.  are you ever amazed by god?  are you ever amazed by god's unfailing love?  i mean, truly amazed.  i was so thankful that in such a vulnerable moment with my fears and my weaknesses, god was ever-present!

aside from my insecurities and my fears, one thing remains...

{higher than the mountains that i face.  stronger than the power of the grave.  constant through the trial and the change.  one thing remains.  one thing remains.  your love never fails.  it never gives up.  it never runs out on me.  on and on and on and on it goes.  it overwhelms and satisfies my soul.  and i never ever have to be afraid.  one thing remains.  in death and in life i'm confident and covered by the power of your great love.  my debt is paid.  there's nothing that can separate my heart from your great love.}